Tho(u)ghtsOfLastNight
FallT(u)rnsToWinter
ok i’m just gonna rant…
this past week in english i’ve been reading catcher in the rye… basically the book deals with this guy named holden, and he hates the world around him and everything… he’s so bitter, and he constantly thinks everyone’s a phony and all… when i was reading it, i realized how deppressing the book is… and realized WHY he hated everything;
in one scene, holden is walking towards a museum, because he used to go there all the time when he was a kid… he’s thinking about all the good times he had there, he’d go there on field trips and he’d always have the same busbuddy… anyways, he says one line that REALLY stuck to me; “The best thing, though, in that museum, was that everything always stayed right where it was … .” damn, when he said that.. it hit me.. Holden hates change… and he doesn’t wanna grow up, thats why hes so bitter and calls all the adults phony. anyways, ontopic: he gets to the museum and just waits at the door for a few minutes, and he never goes in…
that ONE line stuck to me… and i can relate, i fuckin hate change. i dont wanna grow up… its like this; a while ago i was sooo big on getting a job, and i hyped it all up; i’d come up with what to buy with the money and shit. then i just got a job a month ago.. and 2 days before the job i was scared shitless, i was like: WTF, i got a job… *Seirous face*… it hit me. im growin up. i’m getting responsbilities, but it’s ALL comin up so fast.. like the whole time i was just sitting on the couch, now people are moving the couch and i gotta get off….
and fuck i look at everyone around me, everyones changing.. their all welcoming the change… and i dont wanna change. i dont want it to change. like everyones got their g1’s, g2’s… i still need to write my g1… fuck.
when i was first reading catcher in the rye, i thot it was gay. i thought it was just about some guy complaining about his life… and, now im learning to be compassionate for him, cause i’m relating to him… damn.
VS.
btw- do you get the pic? … think hard.
